Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Being 40 is different than what I expected.

I assumed that I would be depressed and sad, yearning for the face I used to have, the body I used to have.

Now that I'm here + a year, I have to say that I was completely and totally wrong.


I find that my tolerance for bullshit is at an all time low. I have less patience for things that I used to think were important. I don't let little things bother me as much.

And, I definitely, DEFINITELY don't give a shit if my hair/makeup/outfit is 100% perfect.

These were all things that I thought were the most important when I was in my 20s, even 30s. 

I find vanity pretty boring these days. I prefer to funnel my money, time, and energy into my bank account where it can sit and blossom into a trip to Australia or anywhere really, a nice RV, land, a home, a truck...etc.

I was always fairly good at finding bargains, now it's practically an Olympic sport.

I pay more attention to world events. I am drawn to people who are wise, kind, and thoughtful. I have real, true friends now. It's amazing.

Every day, I surprise myself with my reactions to things. What once used to make me so upset, seems kind of boring and sad now. I don't fight as much with my husband (he's super happy about that, heh). I find myself more concerned with what motivates people than any other kind of superficial things.

But, most of all, I think I have finally found myself. I knew I was in there, somewhere. I never imagined that the age I was so afraid of would actually bring out the woman I have always been meant to be.

                                                             photo courtesty of dccomics.com

What was a major life changing event in your life? Was it age or experience or both?



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