Showing posts with label aging. Show all posts
Showing posts with label aging. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

Time Marches On..

Having grown up children, one who is living on his own, has been....different.

I say different because I still feel like mom, I still talk like mom, I still act like mom, but I'm not cleaning noses, or yelling about cleaning rooms, or taking inedible things out of toddlers' hands.

Those are the things I used to fret over. Some accident or random thing was going to happen to my children so I had to watch them every single second of every single day. 

The things I fret over today, however, are very different. I still fear accidents and randoms, but mostly it's I hope they're wearing their seatbelt, I hope work/school went ok, are they eating enough? Is everything ok in their personal life? Are they struggling quietly and privately (just like good ole mom) and too proud to tell me? 

And on..and on...and on....

You never really stop being mom, it just changes. 

And now, with my second child about to free fall into the world, I am beginning to feel the wind of the empty nest storm moving in.

Worry and pacing the floors at all hours of the night has always been part of my job, so to speak, but now I can't just crack the door open and look at the most wonderful part of my life, laying there sleeping soundly.

I feel a tornado, a hurricane, a tsunami coming. I already know I am going to be a mess, so I just embrace it. It's part of life, right?

To remind myself, and because I have more money now (one of the perks of kids growing up), I have been treating myself to little trinkets here and there. Things I probably would have bought for myself when I was younger but was funneling all of my money into diapers, clothes, and toys. 

I found this necklace on Soul Soup Treasures for a reminder to stay strong, that the weather isn't always going to go my way, and tomorrow is another day and I want to be around to see it. 



Parenting is never easy, regardless of your child's age, but if you can hold on while the wind whips around you, when the rain just keeps coming down, when you feel like everything has been washed away and you're drowning in the sea of worry, just remind yourself that the sun will come back and the rain clouds will retreat... 

It's just a matter of time.

Friday, January 12, 2018

Joyal Beauty Retinol Cream

I am on a beauty kick lately.

I started out in my forties not worrying a bit about wrinkles, lines, dark circles, puffy eyes, etc etc etc. 41? Not so much.



So, in my quest to find the perfect creams, elixirs, potions, and lotions, I was asked to review Joyal Beauty's Retinol Cream.  




Like the Joyal Beauty Vitamin C Brightening Cream I tried awhile ago, this is a heavy cream with a different sort of smell. The difference, however, is that this one worked much better! I put it on every night before bed and actually started to see results within a week! I did not break out at all and I can tell that my skin is firming up due to the boost in collagen and although it doesn't work as well as my very favorite "beauty hack"....


                                                   (LOL)

It is definitely something I plan on adding to my regular routine. You can find Joyal Beauty Retinol Cream on Amazon for just $20.85. Let me know how you like it!

**I have received a sample product, payment, or both in exchange for this review. Regardless, I pride myself in bringing you an honest and thorough review. Thanks for reading! My comment box is always open for any questions you may have!**

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Being 40 is different than what I expected.

I assumed that I would be depressed and sad, yearning for the face I used to have, the body I used to have.

Now that I'm here + a year, I have to say that I was completely and totally wrong.


I find that my tolerance for bullshit is at an all time low. I have less patience for things that I used to think were important. I don't let little things bother me as much.

And, I definitely, DEFINITELY don't give a shit if my hair/makeup/outfit is 100% perfect.

These were all things that I thought were the most important when I was in my 20s, even 30s. 

I find vanity pretty boring these days. I prefer to funnel my money, time, and energy into my bank account where it can sit and blossom into a trip to Australia or anywhere really, a nice RV, land, a home, a truck...etc.

I was always fairly good at finding bargains, now it's practically an Olympic sport.

I pay more attention to world events. I am drawn to people who are wise, kind, and thoughtful. I have real, true friends now. It's amazing.

Every day, I surprise myself with my reactions to things. What once used to make me so upset, seems kind of boring and sad now. I don't fight as much with my husband (he's super happy about that, heh). I find myself more concerned with what motivates people than any other kind of superficial things.

But, most of all, I think I have finally found myself. I knew I was in there, somewhere. I never imagined that the age I was so afraid of would actually bring out the woman I have always been meant to be.

                                                             photo courtesty of dccomics.com

What was a major life changing event in your life? Was it age or experience or both?



Friday, October 13, 2017

Sometimes, a trip away is all you need.

Transitioning into this new life, new view has been more difficult than I ever imagined. For 21 and 19 years, I was "Mom, where is my folder? Will you tie my shoes? Mom? Mom. Mooooom." 

And I am still and will forever be mom, but having all of my butterflies flying away has been...interesting.

So, for a friend's birthday, I ran away to the Blue Ridge Mountains.




My husband and I had few opportunities to get away while the kids were growing up. We took lots of trips to visit family because I felt that was most important. Ok, and my husband's family trips are amazing! 

However, this is the first trip that just we two went on. Adults adulting with other adults.

I laughed until my belly hurt. I caught up with old and dear friends.

Most of all, I got to spend time alone with the man I have been waiting to come home forever from sea for twenty years.

I think I'm going to like this new life. 

While I watch my butterflies soar on their own, maybe I could fly a little as well.